Amazingly, i thought ive learnt it all and yet theres still so much.
thanks to everyone, losers, haters, kids or even unknowns.
it just feels like when i was in sec 2 again. That incident which ive learnt alot.
Seriously, I shouldnt have been nice to anyone.
its time to be selfish i suppose.
kids, grow up. don't act as if you know everything, when you don't.
DaNiEl
5:15 AM
i know its been a long time since ive blog.
i was inspired to do so when i read about faz's blog.
i sort of forgot how to blog with the climax blahblah.
Right. So life's a bitch.
I seriously hate smokers.
I hate alot of things.
I hate people with fake smiles.
Life. its getting onto me. Relationship. School.
There is just one thing i cant understand.
Why did i enjoy secondary school life more than now. I think faz's made a very good point in his blog.
"Looking back at my secondary school life...Looking at all those smiling faces of everyone i loved...Remembering all those simple retarded moments we had...We looked HAPPY , like the world , the future didnt matter to us.We only cared about the joy of the moment."
i remembered all those silly things we had done in NPCC. though silly, but classic. I remembered how just building a raft and racing across the river would keep us excited. As though a virgin boy had met a naked women for the first time.
Its just plain simplicity.
Ive told myself alot of time, simplicity is beauty.
somehow, its getting onto me. ive been more short tempered.
maybe because ive got lesser life.
I dont know who would read this post, but i hope alot of you would. please tag me.
Right. so current update. Im studying in sentosa now, being in Temasek's LRM. year 2.1.
Im happier in my current class because theres just no bitch with D.
Im improving in my grades. My relationship with classmates is ok.
Im trying to pull up my grades and i succeed.
But i lose out on the other end. The relationship end.
Yaozhong said " Seems like love cannot withstand time"
and it hit me instantly.
Yea. Ive trust and wait and believe.
and this is all i've got.
Its very unusual for me to curse and bitch, but i think i just need to vent my feelings.
I need to have a life back. I want to join clubs and etc. Life is short. Play hard.
I just came back from a funeral. and i realise how short life can be.
Choon Soon excel in every part of sports.
My new friends were also actively involve in volunteering.
Sometimes, i stick to my status quo. I respect individuals and see them as leaders.
At times, i want them to listen to me because i have my experiences.
But bitch. Just because i listen to you doesnt mean i have to take orders. Im merely respecting.
A leader got to know what a leader needs.
I think its maybe i've lacked of self discipline now.
I've got very small social circle. Ive not celebrated birthdays. till this year.
Friends.
I forgotten how to be sociable.
Its relationship. they can change you for the better or for the worst.
Right, im just gonna tell everyone this story.
Jack and Jill were lovely for 2 years.
Jack did everything he could for Jill.
Jack wants the best for Jill.
Jack had to go for his studies.
Jack promised Jill never to be apart.
Jill told Jack after long that she lost her heart.
Jack's hand on that faith lose.
Jill stabbed Jack, right in the heart.
Swallowing Poison despite knowing.
Jack assured Jill.
Jill couldn't assure Jack.
Jack was lost. He need answers.
Jill ain't giving. Jill 'hides', not trusting Jack.
If Jill told Jack, the trust would be back.
Now all Jack could do, is wait.
For how long?
The line he's been holding is thining.
It seems like Jack's gonna go heartbreak for the 2nd time.
I am looking forward to class reunions.
I wanted to exercise to be fit again.
ive been wanting and needing.
i just cant put plans into actions.
I was browsing through some of my friends facebook account.
I notice how we all smile so truefully.
warm and cuddly. United.
As we grow, smiles are just hideous.
Its fake. it pierces you.
I want to see the warm smile again.
As i look into the eyes of others, some tells a sad story.
Looking through pictures, i can tell many of us were sad.
Right. Chelsea won the COMMUNITY SHIELD.
Referee's a bitch.
I want to play soccer tml. Screw project. My toad could eat it.
Right. as im talking. Memories of my secondary school life flashed pass.
ok. Enough of resenting.
Right. so i cant sleep.
i want to play pool, arcade.
OH. and i have a fetish of pooling and drumming at the arcade.
Recently.
Girls with yellow lipstick turns me on.
Right. So im gonna go get rest. Nights.
DaNiEl
4:53 AM
Its a dilemma. Its like. You know you want to go right. but you have got left. you have a left and right to choose from right, and its the right that you want. but you've got a left and in that left have got you a left and right. left's left is what you have. left's right its hard to forget. right's left is unforgivable, and right's right is what you would want.
maybe tomorrow would be a better day. =)
DaNiEl
2:32 AM
Its only until now that i realized how lonely i am. I use to have lots of friends and lots of laughter, saying hi to almost everybody i see in school, and the smile i would recieve were countless.
Phrase like hello Boey, BOEYYYY! or even yo. that once sound so frequent were nowhere to be found these days.
Recently, its only till now that i realise how little friends i have. and the things we have done together were like. poof. friends have to be treasured and live with.
you have to keep your friends close to you and lend a hand.
laugh silly together and off course, share the sorrow too.
I realise that all the friends i have had were now myth or gone. perhaps they dont even know i exist.
once in secondary school, everyone thought that i have lots of friends and hence they dont ask me out. hence, the concept of me=busy begin to drown them, and its just too soon before i was left behind.
I realise my timetable for the holiday was just to wake up and send my girl home.
i really need some life.
i hope that sentosa would change me, or rather, i change my attitude and way of life.
i use to be happy bubbly, but now, i got too over the hedge and i might offend people at times.
even laughing wasnt the same either.
i tried to laugh but all that came out were air forced from the lungs.
and sure, misery loves company, so why hasn't mine arrive?
they say you have to balance your love life and friends, but i just got too heavy on the latter.
maybe thats why i got so little friends. haha.
or rather, im just lazy to find friends.
dont get me wrong, it aint mean that life with my girl's bad. its definitely the most wonderful thing that had ever happened to me. no superlatives could describe her. off course, we had tiffs and such, and im always at the losing end. who cares? i enjoy losing.
alright. let me make a list of the friends i have currently.
Aniq
Adib
Fazlee
Han Bin
Jun liang
Khairi
Sharif
Umar
Raimi
Welly
Salihin
Salihan
Rashikin
Kah Seng
Yao Zhong
Ting Xuan
Eugene
Liqiang
and sooooo on.
WAit. i have loads of friends. maybe i should start talking! ya, thats it.
alright. i kinda feel something is amiss in my life. from the hollows of my heart. well. maybe its just warmth. haha.
signing out!
-dnaz
DaNiEl
3:56 AM
alrights. it has been a while since i have even posted on here, and it doesnt surprise me if no one even reads it! whatever. *coldddd*
ok. So, alot of things has happened during the period of time im on hiatus off blog.
Speechday, 4/5 BBQ, School, Avureh Soccering, BBalling, etcetec.
however, as most would have known me, i still haven got a job!. or rather, i am too lazy to get one.
haish. talking about persistancy and determination. BAh.
WEll, bbq was a blast, we have a bucket load of joy just by teasing wei ling and aniq, and aniq was a sport, he tagg along and teased her till she turn red. Pure classic, pure entertainment.
Speechday was ok i guess, with my batch's mates back to help, and the cadet's efforts, we manage to pull it through. it was a 80% performance. Off course! i still think my speech day was the Best, Simply because i was the PC! hehe.
hmm. i've gotten my sense of humor back, with more laid back stuff to do, lesser Stress, but more weigh! ok no link.
okokokk. it seems like its the only word i would ever say, but i just wanna say it so OK!. ok. ok.
okkk. OH! and i started to hitch upon FACEBOOK. i know i know, im SLOW. but its better then now! and i've tried a few test and such, added friends, but still aint quite sure how to get around playing games and stuff. so yea.
Ok, so its 10+7 more days till school, and i still do not know how to travel to my class, because i would be studying at Sentosa's Tourism Academy! (*iknow i know envy me peeps*). Well, it may sound bomBLASTic, but when you come to think of it, its actually a waste of time. furthermore, i am 1000000% sure that i would be late for at least 7 classes, given my lazzzy attitude.
Ok. I wanna exercise, but im lazy. Daniel is Lazy. this is the fact. ok. and blogging can help to increase you english. your*.
ohoh. its going to be 1 year 5th month soon. hehe.
im so boredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
i miss 2006.................
because why?! NPCC and Secondary school la. its the best time of your life man.
Great peeps and activities and tortures. mmm - i like~~
okok. before i start sprouting nonsense again, i better sign OFF. taaaaaaaaaaaada~
-dnaz
181107!
DaNiEl
5:39 AM
just a short update!
alright. so i went to see the doctor today in the afternoon, and he said i sprain my back. he did a series of twist and turns, and some moves which you thought you could only see it in the movies.
it was painfully, but nonetheless fruitful. it cured my back! and now i felt as if i can walk straight again. yay yay yay.
alright!
thats all now, its a short post. its stated!
DaNiEl
8:55 PM
holy crap. its been like ages since i last blog.
i think i've been a changed person.
No. seriously. I don't know why, but recently, my temper have been getting the better out of me. I feel stress at times and i don't know why!
Poly life is not at all fun unlike secondary school.
Maybe its because i don't mingle around as much.
Suckers. Bah. Losers.
Well. Just to update to anyone who is still reading this blog,
i've got a couple more white hairs
more bad tempered
less enthusiastic. its weird, i mean, how can one change so much? i use to be a WOW BANG. person, but now im just so quiet at times, and ignoring things. bah.
Alright. So, i almost failed my semester, but i was lucky to get pass it.
my langauge! ahh. judging from the way i blog now, its been a large contrast.
maybe I need more time to get use to it.
oh well.
i need to get back life. its like i almost forget how to be happy.
You will understand when u have such friends in poly.
during leadership lesson, while doing the DISC profile, my teacher said that i was too stress, and its actually unhealthy.
She said im being a nice guy, and i wont like to hurt anyone, so i wont reject, and in the end, i would get step on.
MAYbe thats the reason why. but i cant help it. im nice.
maybe thats the reason why i feel stress.
alright. im gonna change again.
onto the brighter side, Its been 1 year and 3 days with ********.
=)
and its ice skating day again during sat!
sigh. i wish taekwondo was back with me
i wish my injuries would be gone
i wish theres more hours to a day.
i wish losers would just die.
=)
-dnaz
DaNiEl
12:52 AM
