i know its been a long time since ive blog.
i was inspired to do so when i read about faz's blog.
i sort of forgot how to blog with the climax blahblah.
Right. So life's a bitch.
I seriously hate smokers.
I hate alot of things.
I hate people with fake smiles.
Life. its getting onto me. Relationship. School.
There is just one thing i cant understand.
Why did i enjoy secondary school life more than now. I think faz's made a very good point in his blog.
"Looking back at my secondary school life...Looking at all those smiling faces of everyone i loved...Remembering all those simple retarded moments we had...We looked HAPPY , like the world , the future didnt matter to us.We only cared about the joy of the moment."
i remembered all those silly things we had done in NPCC. though silly, but classic. I remembered how just building a raft and racing across the river would keep us excited. As though a virgin boy had met a naked women for the first time.
Its just plain simplicity.
Ive told myself alot of time, simplicity is beauty.
somehow, its getting onto me. ive been more short tempered.
maybe because ive got lesser life.
I dont know who would read this post, but i hope alot of you would. please tag me.
Right. so current update. Im studying in sentosa now, being in Temasek's LRM. year 2.1.
Im happier in my current class because theres just no bitch with D.
Im improving in my grades. My relationship with classmates is ok.
Im trying to pull up my grades and i succeed.
But i lose out on the other end. The relationship end.
Yaozhong said " Seems like love cannot withstand time"
and it hit me instantly.
Yea. Ive trust and wait and believe.
and this is all i've got.
Its very unusual for me to curse and bitch, but i think i just need to vent my feelings.
I need to have a life back. I want to join clubs and etc. Life is short. Play hard.
I just came back from a funeral. and i realise how short life can be.
Choon Soon excel in every part of sports.
My new friends were also actively involve in volunteering.
Sometimes, i stick to my status quo. I respect individuals and see them as leaders.
At times, i want them to listen to me because i have my experiences.
But bitch. Just because i listen to you doesnt mean i have to take orders. Im merely respecting.
A leader got to know what a leader needs.
I think its maybe i've lacked of self discipline now.
I've got very small social circle. Ive not celebrated birthdays. till this year.
Friends.
I forgotten how to be sociable.
Its relationship. they can change you for the better or for the worst.
Right, im just gonna tell everyone this story.
Jack and Jill were lovely for 2 years.
Jack did everything he could for Jill.
Jack wants the best for Jill.
Jack had to go for his studies.
Jack promised Jill never to be apart.
Jill told Jack after long that she lost her heart.
Jack's hand on that faith lose.
Jill stabbed Jack, right in the heart.
Swallowing Poison despite knowing.
Jack assured Jill.
Jill couldn't assure Jack.
Jack was lost. He need answers.
Jill ain't giving. Jill 'hides', not trusting Jack.
If Jill told Jack, the trust would be back.
Now all Jack could do, is wait.
For how long?
The line he's been holding is thining.
It seems like Jack's gonna go heartbreak for the 2nd time.
I am looking forward to class reunions.
I wanted to exercise to be fit again.
ive been wanting and needing.
i just cant put plans into actions.
I was browsing through some of my friends facebook account.
I notice how we all smile so truefully.
warm and cuddly. United.
As we grow, smiles are just hideous.
Its fake. it pierces you.
I want to see the warm smile again.
As i look into the eyes of others, some tells a sad story.
Looking through pictures, i can tell many of us were sad.
Right. Chelsea won the COMMUNITY SHIELD.
Referee's a bitch.
I want to play soccer tml. Screw project. My toad could eat it.
Right. as im talking. Memories of my secondary school life flashed pass.
ok. Enough of resenting.
Right. so i cant sleep.
i want to play pool, arcade.
OH. and i have a fetish of pooling and drumming at the arcade.
Recently.
Girls with yellow lipstick turns me on.
Right. So im gonna go get rest. Nights.
DaNiEl
4:53 AM
