Its only until now that i realized how lonely i am. I use to have lots of friends and lots of laughter, saying hi to almost everybody i see in school, and the smile i would recieve were countless.
Phrase like hello Boey, BOEYYYY! or even yo. that once sound so frequent were nowhere to be found these days.
Recently, its only till now that i realise how little friends i have. and the things we have done together were like. poof. friends have to be treasured and live with.
you have to keep your friends close to you and lend a hand.
laugh silly together and off course, share the sorrow too.
I realise that all the friends i have had were now myth or gone. perhaps they dont even know i exist.
once in secondary school, everyone thought that i have lots of friends and hence they dont ask me out. hence, the concept of me=busy begin to drown them, and its just too soon before i was left behind.
I realise my timetable for the holiday was just to wake up and send my girl home.
i really need some life.
i hope that sentosa would change me, or rather, i change my attitude and way of life.
i use to be happy bubbly, but now, i got too over the hedge and i might offend people at times.
even laughing wasnt the same either.
i tried to laugh but all that came out were air forced from the lungs.
and sure, misery loves company, so why hasn't mine arrive?
they say you have to balance your love life and friends, but i just got too heavy on the latter.
maybe thats why i got so little friends. haha.
or rather, im just lazy to find friends.
dont get me wrong, it aint mean that life with my girl's bad. its definitely the most wonderful thing that had ever happened to me. no superlatives could describe her. off course, we had tiffs and such, and im always at the losing end. who cares? i enjoy losing.
alright. let me make a list of the friends i have currently.
Aniq
Adib
Fazlee
Han Bin
Jun liang
Khairi
Sharif
Umar
Raimi
Welly
Salihin
Salihan
Rashikin
Kah Seng
Yao Zhong
Ting Xuan
Eugene
Liqiang
and sooooo on.
WAit. i have loads of friends. maybe i should start talking! ya, thats it.
alright. i kinda feel something is amiss in my life. from the hollows of my heart. well. maybe its just warmth. haha.
signing out!
-dnaz
DaNiEl
3:56 AM
